Saturday, June 24, 2017

In My Heart

There is a very special place in my heart where my memories stay....now, tucked into the corner is a place reserved for my Denny. Today I found a note that has been on the fridge for just about a year dated June 16 2016. It is a small note that simply says, " Water is in the pot...Love the tea fairy". It is one of many little notes that Dennis would write to me. How lucky I have been to have had 47 years of his love. I ask myself how I will get on now without him. Just because I fixed the pond pump and fountain...just because I pumped gas for the very first time and just because so many other little things that I find myself doing does not mean that I want to do this things. These past 2 days have seemed like  an eternity...I have cleaned and polished and washed floors and laundry. I have swept the lanai and yard in the triple digit heat.  I want to see the smile that would melt me. I want to hear his plans for the garden. I will not have to call him in during the rain storms. I want to hear him call me Graz. He never called me Grace and would refer to me to others as The Graz. (short for Grazielle, the Italian of my name.) I thought on that faithful day of May 19th my world exploded......it was just the beginning and now on June 21st it totally fell apart. There was so much more that I thought we would do or say. Plans not yet made. Notes not written. Yet in all this I am fortunate that we did have time to talk and say special words to one another. But I want more time. Denny loved his garden, loved sitting outside reading his favorite magazine, love watching movies, loved watching  the Patriot's football games and wearing his Patriot's hats, he enjoyed listening to all genre of music, he enjoyed taking care of his pond and fish. He had a wonderful sense of humor. Forty-seven years wasn't enough time. Today I found yet more keys but this time they had a label. Still, where do the other keys belong and where is the padlock for that key? We loved mystery movies and now I have the Mystery of the Keys to solve. I need more time with my Denny. I want him here with me. I am lost.....
Dennis Errol Horton...December 16 1945 - June 21 2017

38 comments:

Ann at Beadlework. said...

Oh Grace, my heart goes out to you. You are so eloquent in expressing your thoughts and feelings and reading this makes me wish I could do something to help you. Lean on your family and friends in the coming days and weeks. Take care.

Kerryp77 said...

Sending love Gracie, hold on to all the good times.

Brigitte said...

I feel for you, (((Grace))).

Marilyn said...

Sending you ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))).
Keeping you in my thoughts.
Take care.
Marilyn

mogsinc said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Wish I could do more to help your pain x

Starry-eyed stitcher said...

I am so very very sorry Grace. You and Denny were such a perfect couple. I wish I could do more to help. Much love. Irene xxx

Tiffstitch said...

I'm so sorry Gracie. So very sorry.

Chookyblue...... said...

Hugs

Vickie said...

You and Dennis continue to be in my prayers. Hugs and Love.

Debbie said...

Hugs to you Gracie.

The keys will open the door to the next chapter.

take care

Nurdan Kanber said...

My Condelences ♥♥♥

Grace, it is one of the most emotional love letters, I've ever read.

It's indeed like a miracle to love someone else like this. You are very lucky to have such love inner of you. I believe that, as long as this precious feeling is with you, you will never feel lonely.

The life continues to develop us, if we have enough love and faith. And our loved ones continue to send their love from where they've gone.

I'll keepyou in my prayings ♥♥♥

Big hugs from far far away♥

Simple Pleasure said...

Beautiful love letter...I pray that you may find peace in these cherished, simple joys of life with Dennis.
Warmest regards,
Patricia

Vicki said...

I admire your strength in being able to share such loving insights into your dear Denny in the midst of your grief. What a love - I can only hope that is the kind of love in my marriage. Praying for you, so sorry for your loss.

Mary said...

Your wonderful marriage and relationship will help you get through this. Memories are just sad now, soon they will be precious and make you smile, You will find the right key. Take care of yourself.

Stitching Cat said...

Gracie, Denny is with you and your memories will help during this sad time. The love you both had has always resonated through your blog posts. I lost my husband in 2000 and not a day goes by that I don't still think of him and talk to him. I've been fortunate to have entered into another chapter of my life and have another love. Life does go on and because of the love you had for each other Denny will be there to guide you. Hugs to you at this most difficult time.

Lynda Ruth Bowers said...

He was a wonderful man and you will see him again one day, but for now be brave and know that we all love you and if we could we would be with you but we can't so we send you all our heart felt hugs, kisses and love to help you get thru this time. It dose get easier as time goes by. Just know that we all care deeply for you and your family and we will all be praying for you. Know that we are always with you and Dennis is still there with you. He will always be with you. Love and hugs Lynda Ruth

Donna Golby said...

Hugs

Donna

Deborah Schroder said...

Oh Grace we are hurting for you and sending you hugs, but I know that they will never replace your lovely Denny.

Mouse said...

Grace, he is never far away from you in your heart ...loved hearing about the wee note .. I am sure you will find more in the coming days ...time does heal but the pain never goes fully away and even now after nearly two years I think of phoning my dad up to talk to him, instead I talk to the stars ...take care my friend ... I am here if you need to talk :) love mouse xxxx

Shelly said...

Dear Gracie, hold onto those memories close. Although it's painful now, later they will make you smile. I know you must be reeling over how fast everything happened. I lost my father in 1 month from diagnosis to passing. It's a confusing time. My grandma once told me after my mother passed 17 years prior, that my dad grieving for a spouse is different than grief for a parent. Both painful but slightly different. At the end of your blog comment page, you say 'I am listening.....I would love to be able to respond to your comment....' etc. Well, now it's us who are listening.

CalamityJr said...

What a beautiful post, Gracie. Keep holding those memories close; Mr H will always be with you. Hugs and prayers will continue for you.

Jo who can't think of a clever nickname said...

A lovely touching post Gracie. He was such a wonderful husband to you, we all love hearing about your life together.
Our thoughts are with you and you are in our hearts too.

LeShawn said...

My heart aches for you. I wish your pain to ease. Your words are so moving and real. It is never enough time when you truly love someone. My prayers are with you Grace.

shirley flavell said...

Hugs to you Gracie. Shirley N.Z.

Sheryl S. said...

So sorry for your loss Gracie, love and hugs.

Janice said...

Such a nice tribute....he sounds like everything you'd want in a husband.. and found. Many memories that are now painful...will one day bring laughter and a big smile to your face. How I wish I could be there to sit quietly with you..but know you are always in my thoughts and prayers ��

Rose Marie Della Ventura said...

You write so eloquently Gracie!! Your wonderful memories will always be there for you. Like Janice, I wish I was there to comfort you. Wouldn't that be great Janice!!! One day at a time. 💓

Tonya said...

❤️

Terri said...

Hugs!

butterfly said...


Your doing the right thing's gracie , put up photo's and talk to Denny .
I do it all the time to my lost love ones . He will be watching you .
Keep an eye out for a white feather , it is a sign that they send their love.

Vonna Pfeiffer said...

When I look at Mr. H's photos, all I see is his heart shining in his eyes, filled with love for you, Gracie :)

AC said...

Always ❤️❤️❤️

Annette-California said...

Keep his memories in your heart and in spirit he will help you thru this. Sending love and hugs. Love Annette

Julie said...

A very lovely posting amidst your grief, you do write so beautifully from the heart Gracie. Some lovely pictures you have shared with us, he does look a very kind, caring and wonderful man. God bless you xxx

Leonore Winterer said...

Oh gracie...I have only been following your blog for a short few months, but here I find myself, sitting at work and helplessly sobbing for you and your love that has moved on, but will certainly never die. My thoughts and hugs and prayers are with you - you are an amazing woman and I am sure you will find the strength to get through everything that comes.

Anthea said...

Dear Gracie, sending you love & condolences... that you have shared this most difficult of times with your readers, in such detail & honesty, is truly a privilege to read.
Hugs from Australia , Anthea x

Rosie H. said...

A loving tribute to Dennis. Lots of little things will keep his memory alive.
Hugs.

Cindy's Stitching said...

Grace I am sitting catching up on my blogs, with tears streaming down. There are no words I can provide to give you Comfort. He is still with you. Blessings to you and your loved ones. Huggs