Oh I had such plans for my post Thursday...but did not post. Then I thought, okay it will be Friday's post about the 2 hats and Grover. The Brother Alan and Lisa left their cowboy hats here with Grover and where I will be looking at them all year until the next visit.
It cheered me to see them in the sewing/guest room. They will still cheer me now. Toward the end of their visit, Dennis ( and I ) were facing some health issues. He was not feeling well at all and we did see the doctor. Alan left and we had tests. Just as the results were back things changed. My dear Dennis is now in hospital and more tests have revealed that his has Lymphoma. How far is it, where is it and what to do next are the questions swirling around my head. I am numb. Dennis has not asked any questions nor said anything. I am coward and do not prompt him for any. It was hard to leave him at the hospital last evening but I felt so drained and needed to eat and try to sleep. I guess it was 11 Pm when I dozed off and have now been awake since 2:30 AM wondering what to do. What do I say when I go back this morning and he is more alert after being medicated and poked and prodded yesterday. They took 9 vials of blood late yesterday for yet more tests and by my count that made 14 in all. They were trying to keep his blood pressure up as it was extremely low when we arrived there at 10:30 AM. It was 5 1/2 hours in the ER before the going for biopsies and then almost 2 hours later before joining me in his room. Please do not think I am complaining but I just need to vent....to at least write what is difficult to say out loud. I know that you will listen and I know that you care. We bloggers are a great group. My blog which has been my stitching and doings place will for now be my place to vent....I am not answering my telephone as I can not speak the words. Somehow it is easier to write them than to hear them. The Horton House is so quiet....maybe a little more sleep before starting my day.
