Another year to mark

We had 47 years together; some were difficult but the wonderful times far out number those. Those last days were difficult for me....but  those days were more difficult for you. You told me that you wanted me to "live a happy life". I try each day to find something to be happy about but some days it is near impossible. You were my happy life.

 Today is 7 years without you. Time does not make it easier. Some might say it is time to move on...where? how? My world feels  shattered just as it did our last 33 days together. Each day hurt so much. I still can hear the nighttime phone call to say you were finally at peace. For me it meant a lifetime of missing you. I miss your smile.... your touch.... holding hands. I miss your humor and witty comments. Sometimes I look over my shoulder when I am sewing/crafting to not find you there. You always encouraged me to try something new. You thought I could make anything.

 Some days, many actually, I look to the garden and remember how much you loved being out there with a watering can in hand. You did not want the automatic sprinkler system on. It drove me crazy but you enjoyed caring for each plant.  It is sad sometimes for me to sit outside without you.                

So my love, I will continue to remember all the wonderful loving times.  Our love will always be in my heart......

My mind…

Still talks to you

And my heart still looks for you

But my soul

Knows you are in

Peace.

La Vita e Bella

December 16, 1945~~~June 21, 2017